travelling

gray clouds blanket the sky
orange evening sun slips through the frayed edges at the horizon
my mind wanders from the road ahead of me
walks back to our conversation
her hesitation
maybe she can't find the words
maybe she can't remember the story
and forward to holding her arm as we walk to the house
concrete pavers carving a path through the gentle slope of grass
slow morning easy breakfast
sunny afternoon walk early movie
steady enough to smooth the edges of her memory of her day

bridging this road to the next
I cried as I asked her
and she cried as she answered

little toe

one movement and then one more
and the earth shifts around me
and the water starts to rise

it swallows my knees
then crests the wall between me and some day
everything overflows into new and next
filling me with hope
energy
calm

tiny toe in as I whispered maybe under my breath
and the universe rose to meet me
pull me through to this

fresh

new neighborhood fabric store and swatches of my gorgeous future
flowy sleeveless dress with platform heels for sierra's wedding
and the ideas are swirling again
and I feel juicy and energetic and open and ready
for something new

mandolins and pound cake
bursting wide open and hoping everyone will see

manifesting amazing courageous

cup of coffee a day maybe 10 a week
what could I build
what could we build together